Always My Stronghold

I want to feel self-sufficient.

I want to arrange my schedule so that everything makes perfect sense.  I want only to attempt things I know I can handle.  And I want to make really sure that I don't get hurt by anyone or anything. 

Recently, God has been reminding me that this place of self-dependance is a very dangerous one.  Where is my faith?  What about the promise that there is nothing too big for Him to handle?  If I'm busy relying on my own talents and abilities as I percieve them to be, when will I turn to God? 

Moses didn't want to obey God because he percieved himself to be a bad public speaker.  I know the feeling.  Too many times I have felt like saying, "I'm terribly sorry, but You have the wrong person.  There is no way I can do what you're asking me to!  I don't have the training, I don't have the talent!"

Maybe that's the point.  Maybe our inadequacies are what makes us perfect for the job he's called us to do.  When we know we can't rely on ourselves, then we have no choice but to rely on our Father.

It's a most liberating truth, even though it sounds scary.  I know that His power flowing through me - a vessel - will fill up all my weaknesses and conquer my fear, and He will accomplish so much more than I could have on my own!

What an honor it is to be weak, so that His strength can be made perfect in us.

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True

Try to wrap your mind around this:

Jesus died for you.

It's still difficult for me to comprehend.  I think we've talked about it so much, that it almost feels "cliche" -- and then there are those moments when it hits me, and I stumble back, overwhelmed.  Can it be true that my King and Creator is also my Savior and very best Friend? 

It is! 

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Free

"You act like you're under bondage, but you're not."

I woke with a start.  "What do you mean, Lord?  What should I do?", I interrupted.

But God wasn't finished.

"You act like you're under this bondage.  You live like you are.  But you're not.  You are free!  You are free!" 

That was all He said.  And something changed inside.  I felt a little bolder, a little stronger, and more able to stand against the enemy.  I didn't care as much what people thought anymore.  I knew He was here, and that He was guiding me.  What an incredible upper-hand we have for any trial -- the Creator of the Universe looking out for us. 

This bondage -- what did He mean?  Perhaps it's the way I cower in the corner when Satan condemns me or tries to confuse me.  Maybe it's the way I sit silently with my heart beating out of my chest when I know I need to say something, or how guiltily compelled I feel to "reason with" and "tolerate" untruth, instead of rejecting it.  The bondage probably includes all of those things, and more. 

So what if they laugh?  So what if they kill me?

Here's to living like we're free. 

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Always Like Sheep

God calls us His sheep. 

I used to think of this in very general terms -- just an analogy to help us understand that He gently guides us through the pastures and valleys of life.  Lately, however, I've come to realize that there are quite a few sheepish characteristics that can also be found in us.  When I began looking into them, it helped to open my eyes and greater understand this "Shepherd" relationship we have with Him.

Sheep are helpless when they fall on their backs.  They cannot get up on their own, and they cannot help each other get up.  They are absolutely dependant upon their shepherd to find them in their distress and bring them to their feet again. 

Sheep were not meant to carry burdens.  Their fragile backs will break when loaded with heavy objects.

Sheep don't drink like they should when left to themselves.  They will become dehydrated although there is plenty of water available and in sight.  Shepherds sometimes have to move the sheep's face to the water to remind it to drink.

Do you see the similarities?  Like sheep, we need Him completely -- not just for assistance, but to literally pick us up, and set us right again.  We cannot function when burdened with cares and worries, and like a good shepherd, He doesn't lay those things on our backs.  We can be free when we turn to Him with our anxiety.  And like sheep, we forget to drink when we need to.  We get so distracted.  We feel so self-sufficient.  How wonderful it is that He knows when we're thirsty even when we don't, and that He will not only lead us to Living Water, but touch it to our lips. 

What a good Shepherd we have.

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